remembering how it used to feel and what it feels like now
nothing much has changed
i lack feeling, i lack purpose
i’m scared things will stay the same
i fear that things will always stay the same
i’m living every day with my emotions drawing blanks
keeping me rooted in routine is the only way i tolerate
i’ve got nothing left to offer and nothing more to gain
i’m left to disintegrate
disintegrate
i can’t cope with the ambiguity of finding my purpose
and i don’t know if i even have one at all
i want to find more to care about in my life, and what it feels like
sensing nothing at all towards the things that happen to me
i see the water moving at my feet
look through the surface to what’s moving underneath
at different angles i’m the only thing i see
the flow of it all continues on all around me
when i gaze into my future’s probability
my sights are too focused on keeping my mind at ease
my mind constantly filled with apathy
not knowing what to do about all my deficiencies
i have never had the feeling that i was placed here for a reason
i’ve been separating from myself
the long drive through changing seasons
i’ve taken short cuts and they’ve brought me no closer to home
being told it’s the only way to go, wandering alone
and i know without a doubt
i’ll see better things taking the scenic route
and I know without a doubt
i'll see better things in myself
and I know without a doubt
i'll see better things taking the scenic route
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